TO THE BITTER END

 
 

I drew so many lines, but I was always quick to cross them
Grew sick of all the fights, I knew I had already lost them
The future halts to a pause and I keep living in the past
Feel cheated by the illusions that somethings do last

Please take my hand, don’t leave me here alone
Just a sad look on your face that could cut through my bones
With tears of sorrow running down your face and
Me being sorry for a million different reasons

Could keep on pleading, but it won’t make much sense
‘Cause we both know how this story starts and how it always ends
Lovers out of friends, and now friends into strangers
Promises that fade away like colors in paintings

Embraced apathy, but I got older ‘cause I learned that
Love can’t rest on a cold shoulder and a turned back
So I quit trying and just gave up all my hopes
Wouldn’t it be great if you cared what I wrote

And I’m stuck here in my self-made place
You moved on, but I can’t change
And I don’t know why

And somewhere I stopped hoping
On this long road I’m walking
All the way to the bitter end

I learned from my mistakes, then made lots of new ones
Turned and tried to change, but fell back after a few months
Started fights just to hide the lies in my words
Stuck with nothing but regret, and all the time in the world

And that’s the sweet irony of what you never meant
Makes you give up and begin the walk to the bitter end
But everything eventually withers away
So I’ll be sitting right here, dreaming of all the better days

Trough all the open hearts, and the close calls
Trough all the hopeful heights, and my deep falls
I saw that maybe choices are tough, but they’re worth seizing
Epiphanies showed me that no roads are easy

I want to pick up on the path where I tripped
But it’s so hard when I think it could be healed with her kiss
But then she doesn’t really exist
Except in a small space of time in memories of things I miss

And I’m stuck here in my self-made place
You moved on, but I can’t change
And I don’t know why

And somewhere I stopped hoping
On this long road I’m walking
All the way to the bitter end

If no one is left to remember something, will if fade and decline?
Then did the most beautiful moments only take place in my mind?
‘Cause I’m the only one that knows what they mean to me
So then, when I’m gone, I guess they will cease to be

A good day don’t seem that special when you’re in it
‘Cause nothing has any true value but what you give it
And many years from now when you look back again
You’ll see old loves, forgotten friends, and what you could have been

So in the end was it worth it?
‘Cause I’ve been haunted at nights by self-guilt and a long list of what-ifs
And the words that I didn’t say, ‘cause I got too scared
They tend to hurt more in the long run, than those I had to hear

And the thoughts I can’t bear, and the aching of her lips
All residing with me at the bitter end of this relationship
I still keep a picture of her in my bag
But that’s all I’ll ever have

And I’m stuck here in my self-made place
You moved on, but I can’t change
And I don’t know why

And somewhere I stopped hoping
On this long road I’m walking
All the way to the bitter end